I took a big step today. I have been very unhappy for a while, and I think this step will help me. As many people know, weight is a huge issue in the USA, and I have become a workout DVD owner. I know, I’m sure you all think, but she is so thin and pretty. You’re wrong. Photoshop and multiple angles are wonderful things. I worked out today with the Jillian Michaels – 30 Day Shred DVD.
I actually really liked it and my toddler was working out along with me. It was really cute seeing him trying to do butt kicks! It was intense, I was on level 1 and it was intense. I even had to revert to some of the modified techniques which was less of a swing at my ego than I thought it would be. I have the mentality that I have to restart at the basics, which is hard for me to do honestly. I was in extremely good shape back in the day. I think most people have different sections of weight in their lives, mine are: “pre-marriage, pre-baby, and current.” Currently I guess I am within 7 pounds of my “pre-baby” weight, and I would love to get to my “pre-marriage” weight, although I’m not holding my breath for that to be honest. I have 10 pounds between my pre-marriage and pre-baby weights, and I’m shooting for the medium. Sounds like a good, healthy, attainable goal. The actual goal is just to feel good about how I look. I don’t own a scale, never have (just checked myself at the fitness center), but I will know when I have reached my goal just by looking in the mirror.
I was chatting to my friend yesterday, she just had a baby and looks amazing, so we are reporting to each other about our workouts. We both have roughly 15 pound weight loss goals, both stay at home moms, neither of us own scales (thus the “roughly 15 pounds”), we were roommates in college for 2 years so we get along well, and we are honest with each other. I have tried to “report” to other friends, but I feel much more responsible reporting to her, I think that is key. Find a friend that you feel responsible to.
So here I go, taking my first step towards a better self image, and to be honest, I do feel better. My thighs feel like jello from my workout, and I feel great!